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Ginger1,

And this summer I went to a country music festival at the beach with the nurses on my unit and we had a blast!

Me too! Any chance it was between two piers of a boardwalk? That'd be funny if we both attended the same one lol

Most men are living at home. For whatever reason. I let it slide a bit because I know I can barely keep my head above water in this state and if I had a situation where it would be possible and cohabitate with my parents, I probably would!

Most single men you've encountered in that age range are living with their parents? That seems...odd.

Well, got the “you are a very nice person and it’s not you, I just don’t have the feelings I need to move this forward” text.

Sorry it didn't work out. You seemed excited, so that must've been disappointing.

I’ve been dating actively for like 11 years . It’s just getting worse out there. Nothing makes sense that happens in the dating world. I began listening to to this new podcast called dating deeply, and it really explains how OLD can be dehumanizing.

Well this isn't encouraging for someone who's just starting out LOL, but I haven't gotten a good sense about OLD dating either (in my limited months into it).

This other guy who worships me keeps asking for another chance. He wants me in his life anyone he can have me apparently. I hate hurting his feelings, but I don’t feel it.

Sounds like you have guys interested in you. It's just that you're not interested in them. It just happens to be the reverse with this guy. I'm sure it must be frustrating.

I cannot get close to a single guy.

I probably need therapy again to figure out how to get close to someone again.

I have not gotten excited for one single guy. I don’t go into dates with excitement or nerves anymore. Just ambivalent.

This theme seems worth exploring as you've mentioned it several times. Maybe because of your past experiences you're just a bit closed off and opening yourself up a bit to the possibilities would be helpful? I know there are really good guys out there looking for quality women such as yourself...