Hey G. No words of wisdom from me bit just know that you are not alone. I can definitely understand you feeling disheartened and also feeling numb inside when you do go out with someone. Lately I’ve noticed myself feeling the same way. I still have hope and I’m still interested in meeting someone but the process seems like so much work that I haven’t even chatted with anyone online since I was suddenly ghosted by a guy who asked me out and then “disappeared” the day before we were supposed to meet up. I’m usually pretty open to meeting people but I haven’t been feeling that way recently. Hoping the new year brings new opportunities…for both of us. (((HUGS)))