OB- thanks you. I’ve been dating actively for like 11 years . It’s just getting worse out there. Nothing makes sense that happens in the dating world. I began listening to to this new podcast called dating deeply, and it really explains how OLD can be dehumanizing. It really has become that way. Even with texting even after you meet. People forget there is a real life human behind the screen. I do definitely have some sass, I’m not all that boring, lol. I do get passionate in the stuff I strongly believe in .

DNJ and KML- thank you also! I am more settled than most, and I think men often don’t even know what to do with that. Women at my age just went through divorces . Or have never even been married. And I’m just living a regular old life here. But I am really ok with me. I feel like others may not be. I think I might be also a little intimidating. I do have my ish together ( my finances could be better). Most men pretend to know what they want, but they really don’t know. Most are fresh out of divorce. Most want the benefits of having a girlfriend without having to be a boyfriend. It’s truly a mess out there.

It just came out of left field with this guy. One minute talking about how he was looking forward to our dinner Friday night and then a text comes through that actually started off with “hey, it’s not you!” He needs to be feeling more before he takes it to the next level. Ummm, is dinner the next level? It was nice to have someone who didn’t treat me sexually right off the bat. Oh well.

This other guy who worships me keeps asking for another chance. He wants me in his life anyone he can have me apparently. I hate hurting his feelings, but I don’t feel it.

I don’t know if my picker is off, because there is only so much you can truly know through a few exchanges from an OLD profile.

I still think I just need to get out of this area. I have tapped it out , lol. I can’t begin to tell you how much I cannot wait to move. I want to sell this house and rent a nice apartment for half the price. Living where I do absolutely is causing me so much stress on so many levels. I just have to hang in for the next few years.

I’m hoping once my knee recovers I can get back to focusing on some of my hobbies. Winter hiking is something new I want to try.

Thanks for the support. I really am disheartened and worn out . The holidays aren’t helping