To echo others, lots of red flags here. Get into IC, stat. Maybe AA too. It is difficult enough to make good decisions sober, let alone drunk. Right now you want to be in control of yourself at all times.

You are pinballing between extremes, Galaga. Never a good place to be. Get the help you need to get through this difficult time.

M(53), W(54),D(19)
M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017
Ring and Piecing since March 2018