Not sure I understand all of that. If I can decipher it sounds like your are doing what you want to do, rather to than what is best, and making excuses why. Your life. Your sitch. Do what you want. Just realize that some of your choices will delay you moving forward, not help.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
