I think you should work on this. As you walk through this journey, you need to get to a place where the indifference is much stronger. Where your husband’s reactions or peeks out of the tunnel are unimportant, amusing or where you don’t even realise they are occurring because you’re so detached.
If you or anybody else can give me some advice on how to reach this stage, please do so. Definitely the part where you mention the word amusing intrigues me. It must be wonderful to get to this point.
