Mach, the sad reality is that most LBSs end up pushing the D through themselves even though it wasn't what they originally wanted. Having never been to that point, I cannot say for sure what I would or wouldn't do (LH will be the first to point that out!), but I cannot imagine going on without closure for more than a year or two. Limbo is bad. Long limbo is worse. I know you are still holding out hope, and you think, at least deep down, that being friends was the way to potentially get there. But you really need to start imaging what you want the rest of your life to look like, and then go start making that happen. If pushing the D to finality is a step in that process, then so be it.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018