So it’s interesting that you’re blaming your inability to control your emotions (anxiety, paranoia, resentment) on the SSRIs. This is a good 180 for you to work on.
I’m going to give you some advice if it comes to separation. Do your due diligence to find out if there is an affair. If there is do not do the “nesting” arrangement where you go back and forth to an apartment. Thats a cake eaters dream scenario.
Ah the blown kiss lol is right up there with the half lean in hug. Nothing to see her.
