Thanks for the support and kind words. I love the idea of have a list of positive things, quotes in my phone. I am doing the asap. I need to be more future oriented and have things in there that are my goals and aspirations. I think that will be wonderful for my mindset. Thanks for that suggestion.
LH:
Hey brother! Thanks for chiming in. You're absolutely right that we're not Plan B, but Plan K lol. I was about to get into the dating pool just before the pandemic hit and that delayed all plans. But now I feel like I can do that. The goal is to get my $hit together by December and then enter the dating waters in 2022. still not sure what I want - maybe a long term R, but I probably just want something casual in the beginning to get the mojo back. My friends tell me that I look like a younger version of Jeff Goldblum, so I got that going for me
Dawn:
Appreciate the kind words. I think I went through a few hard days but I feel a whole lot better today. Amazing what a great night's sleep will do to you. I try to share and be helpful in what I can here as I think I got so much out of this community, it is my responsibility to share back and see if I can help anyone.
I feel really good today. I had Goggins in my ears all day and it snapped me out of my funk. It also made me realize that I haven't lost all my emotional and mental gains - I spent a couplea days wallowing, but I am back. I know that there will be some backsliding here and there, but the fact that I am able to go the gym now is a lifesaver - that's ME time and it's the place where I get my sanity back.
Just going to live by the adage of 'have a bias towards action' and keep going at it. I know what I also bring in the professional world is incredible and I'm just going to keep applying to appropriate jobs and keep knocking on the door. I have a phone screen next week for a job and even though I'm not particularly enthused about the position, it is still a positive step. Let's see what the job is like and if it meets what I am looking for.
This community is just one of the best things that I've come across for support. Everyone takes time to give such thoughtful feedback and if we could divulge our real identities and have a yearly reunion somewhere, I'd definitely do it
Taking the recycling out today and cleaning up the place. Got some plants that have spruced up my shabby apartment, so making it more homey. Can't wait to get out of this place to a new apartment with a new job. It's coming. I just gotta persevere.
