Still Goin' Solo

[BL42]

Maika,

"Why do we fall? So we can learn to pick ourselves up."

Sorry you've regressed a bit physically, mentally, and emotionally. Keep in mind you got through initial BD and D and had those aspects of your life strong. It's understandable to have a bit of a backslide, you can and WILL do it again...and it will be easier this time already having gone through it once. You're already crushing it with the kids and starting back on the gym. Remember back to how you built yourself up and do that again. You'll get there one step at a time.

But as we have been told by wise ones on this board, feelings are fleeting and my guess is you won't feel this way in a day, week or month.

Sage4 gives good advice here. You'll get through this bump and feel strong again.

I haven't been put in the loop about that - introducing someone new to the kids without giving the other person the heads up about it.

It's maddening. It's infuriating. I've had the same experience with my ExW & kids; it's a feeling of completely loss of control over how your children are raised, taught, modeled. Sorry man. Unfortunately there's just nothing we can do about it. Our Exs will do as they please, regardless of what we think or what's in the best interest of the children.

From the outside, her life looks spectacular and my life is in shambles.

Her life could be spectacular. Or it could be awful. Who knows what's going on behind the scenes. After all, you know things blew up on her once already. Key thing is don't let your perception of how she's doing affect you. Instead try to focus on yourself and improving your life. Easier said than done, trust me I get it, but you can get there.

Having you back regularly posting has been great, you are making a great contribution, I thank you for that.

^I second OB's motion! You've helped me a lot weighing in on my sitch and I can see you doing the same for others.