Divorce and Acceptance part 5

[Pax_luv]

Why hello there. This thread should be closing soon and I’m not sure if I’ll start another in the surviving group or just wrap this up there. I’m coming up on my 6 year anniversary on this site so we shall see what shakes out!!

The last couple of weeks have been hard. The Ivf egg cycle didn’t turn out as hoped so I’ll be trying again in a few days. All the extra hormones and side effects have made for a really good time (rolls eyes).

I’m definitely feeling restless and want to change things up in a big way. All these articles coming out on “pandemic flux syndrome” and “languishing” is definitely where I’m at right now. The urge to flip my life around is strong. I have a pretty good job but it’s just too much. I’m in healthcare... and to be honest healthcare s*cks right now. It’s so bad. I’ve dedicated almost 20 years to this industry and I think it’s time for a change. I’ve been actively putting my resume out there.

I’ve also been contemplating going back to school. There’s 3, 3 year paths that I’m considering. I’ve spoken with advisors, have sample schedules and everything. I just need to nail down what I’d like to do for my second career. My current job is piloting an external life coaching program so I’ve just leaned in to see if I can be an end user. I just don’t know the path I want to take.. maybe a coach will help me find clarity just like my DB coach did in the beginning of this journey. I have a vision of what my life would be like in any of those three paths and I think about it often. I just know where I’m at right now is not where I want to be anymore. On paper my job is pretty cool...It’s hard to give it up as I’ve never been a grass is greener type of person..... but now I really think the grass is greener elsewhere.

That’s about it. Things are going ok otherwise. Been doing a long distance thing with a man friend which actually works out well since I relish my independence. Not to mention, he’s just an all around good human and the family digs him too. I even think my dog might like him more than me (rolls eyes again).

The parents have had some health things pop up which is just a reminder that life is soooo darn short and the most important things are spending time with those who are important to you and doing things that spark joy.

Also since this is still an MLC thread, I can share that I feel free of my ex. Took a long time and definitely have some ptsd still and get those triggers..... but I’m free!!!

All my best to you dbers. Until next time.