Rope dropping and grey rocks

[bttrfly]

Oh my stars and gardens....

My S29 just told me that his father and OW are "swinging" with his COUSIN and cousin's wife.

I think I just threw up a little. Is that the Deliverance theme I hear????

Good news:
1. I wasn't shocked, only slightly nauseated because cousin has been married to wife for 15 years...so...family.
2. Beyond nausea, I felt NOTHING. It was like hearing that my neighbors do it. Meh. Shrug...Whatever works for them.

I am thankful I'm out of that mess. Thankful my kids are grown. Thankful that whatever XH does - does not disrupt my emotional equilibrium.

I share that thanks.

Switched to days today. I loved it. Have a great partner who is also my supervisor. We had a lot of fun and it was nice to share meals (breakfast and lunch) when I work nights, I ate alone, and when I'm off I eat alone. Doesn't bother me, but it was nice.

I remember eating alone when son was with his father or away at school ... at first it was exceptionally painful, because preparing food for my family was my thing. Who am I kidding, for months after BD I couldn't even get through grocery shopping without sobbing in the store. True story. Yes, I was that strange woman crying amidst the produce. I'd forgotten how hard it was to do the most basic things and how far I've come. Thanks for that reminder, Hope. I needed it today.

Learning a lot and a new professional opportunity has presented itself. Speaking with someone tomorrow about it.

Secure the loan first, then change jobs.

Going to visit a friend in hospital tomorrow who was injured while on duty. I was with him at the time, and it was a very emotional experience for us both. Less so for me but I've found these days, not much really shakes me up. (yay!)

!!!! hugs Hope. Glad that you're ok and hope your friend heals quickly.

Have fun with the grands ... xoxoxo