DejaVu6 I can't imagine what that must have been like. I'm sure I'll feel something if that happens in my sitch, but I also feel like it's a train wreck waiting to happen. I also believe in Karma. And I try to focus on me and not interact with STBXH with anger as I know it won't help me as well as Karma has a great way of doing it's job. It's my goal to be where you are now. It's inspiring to hear you are living and building a great life for you and your kids now! Thanks for your words and encouragement. ((hugs back))
Wayfarer is also a hero to me. RAISED HANDS. But May, I know from reading your sitch that anger has been a struggle for you too...and reading yours and Wayfarer's story have helped me so much. I've not read AlisonUK's sitch yet. I'm really behind with all that has been happening with work and getting the house finalized for sale without the STBXH's help. Writing a letter might really be helpful. I've been trying to do the journal, but that too has been pushed aside. But yes, that would be more me than punching a bag. But I get why you might like it!
I believe strongly that I will need to work on trusting my gut instincts again with therapy. I know that I'll need to work on this, better boundaries, as well as just overall trauma healing. First order of business when the house sells and my schedule opens up in the next month is to find a good trauma counselor. The PTSD program I started on my week off was a good start thought but not enough.
Thank you both for your encouragement and sharing your ideas and feelings. It means a lot. Even just to be heard and understood...and it also helps to be pushed forward. So thank you!
xo El
Me 52, H 56 T10 M7, 2nd MR for both 2 Step Sons (19 and 21) BD: Fall 2020 D finalized: July 2022 XH Married AP soon after D day.
