I can't believe that you guys have had to go through this stuff and probably with kids too. It must have been an absolute nightmare! But you're here and survived, so I should also, eh? (I won't die...).
We slayed the dragon. Be a dragon slayer. We are more than surviving, we are thriving.
Some of my beliefs were reinforces while others were challenged and changed. The skills I learned during my divorce were extremely helpful while parenting as well.
I know you desire IC. You may want to do some research into EMDR therapy and see if that is something that may benefit you. I know MWD spoke of Solution-Focused Brief Therapy (SFBT).
There are many levels to the healing that needs to happen. Some can happen now and others may need to happen in the future.
Do as many enjoyable things this weekend as you can.
R2C
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712