Happy Birthday, Michka. I understand waking up lonely. It will get better.
I like what you said " I don't want to know more than I do".
I had a mantra when I felt the urge to dig. It was: "I know enough".
That is a good place to be. The details do not matter. For everyone, it's different in what "enough" is. I've found less is better. Hope this makes sense.
I hope you are finding peace in this storm. Steve is right, one day at a time. You are doing great, despite what you feel. ((((Michka))))
97 Hope.... it was never about knowing what was said, where it was said etc. I just needed to know the truth that there was someone, it was a lightbulb moment to be honest because everything else made sense. Those little things I thought were odd, strange, out of character...
The OW is just that to me...someone else. Not bad, good or terrible. She did not do anything to me. My H did. I kinda feel sorry for her to be honest. I dont regret reaching out to her, I actually think I did her a favour. In the end she never pursued contact and I left it there. I know it was highly discouraged by the board but I guess no harm was done.
