Ah... thanks so much. I appreciate all the wise words I have seen from other people on various threads and it has been a godsend.

It's still incredibly raw but I have been taking the advice others have been given, and feel the pain for those who are going through this. I don't wish this feeling on anyone, but to know there are others who have lived to tell the tale really helps.

From spending our time in each others' pockets to this is devastating... but I'm doing the GAL thing and working on my flaws with gritted determination.

It's just the "if only I'd seen it coming" I could have done things so very differently. It's all so unreal.