Ugh. I need two years of employment history for underwriting. I put XH through professional school and then ran the ranch, went back to school myself, and raised the boys.

Breathing and meditating now. I will not go bitter bunny. I will not resent the fact that XH has piles of money and could pay cash for my little dream house. It's not about him anymore.

I could stay in apartment for another year until I have the history. I don't want to, but I need to focus on the blessing of having enough money to cover rent.

Frustrated.

ME47 XH44, S28 S24 S19

8/17-BD
IHS: 1/17-2/19
D FILED (ME): 7/19
D FINAL: 10/20
M23 T25
OW CONFIRMED: 01/21

Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.