So I need some advice, so knowing my H is lying to be has been hard, I'm a very honest person and its not knowing that kills me. Anyways I did not so great stuff, in the beginning I had access to some of his stuff like email etc. And I spied.... I know thats bad, and I'm really not proud of it, nor do I like myself for it. But anyways I did stop snooping on them but never got rid of them, then apparently something my H had got deleted, it wasn't me but he accused me of it. I told him how I had still had access to some of his stuff and he basically told me "thats why he wants a divorce" it's completely irrelevant that Hes the one lying though he still swears he hasnt talked to anyone for like 2 weeks, which of course isnt true. Anyways the point is I told him the truth that I had technically had access to some things, I hadnt snooped for a good while but he doesnt believe me. I told him I was going to delete all the stuff for it off my phone so I dont have access. Of course he doesnt believe me and I even told him he is welcome to look through my phone when he gets home as I have nothing to hide.
I hate lies more then anything so being called one I really dont handle well but I just really want this thing to at least be believed. I'm sure with my Hs lies hes going to accuse me no matter what. I just feel like this coming out now has just really damaged everything. All the DBing ive been doing and this feels like I major setback.
Any advice on anything I could or should do here would be greatly appreciated.
