16th July 2021 - Divorce Filed What a nasty feeling. Seeing as my stbxw hasn't agreed to pay maintenance, a court petition has had to be filed and seeing that this has had to be filed, the divorce petition also needed to be filed. So, it has. This will probably be seen by her that I am making her unhappy, I hope she sees the potential damage that may be caused to her career as reasons for maintenance without mediation have needed to be explained to the court.
And so the process begins. I have pulled the plug on our marriage - I suppose she pulled the plug on our relationship. I wonder how long it will take that dirty water together with the upset and pain, to drain away?
It's at moment like these that I wish I could just sit down with her for a conversation. I was thinking this morning while working out that I would have liked to tell her that I really don't want to file for divorce but I no longer have an option. I even may have even considered R if she reached out. If she hadn't stolen the money, then I wouldn't need to apply for maintenance so quickly and then i could spend more of my energy looking to move and that makes me just want to get out of this and start rebuilding a life on my own.
Onwards and upwards.
GALing: Had workout this morning. Going to park to read soon, get some fresh air, as it will be too hot later and I need a break.
M(55), W(45) BD1: Apr-2011, BD2: 23-May-21, NC (15 June '21) Divorce Filed (16 July '21) --- When you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel, you need to trust it's there.
