So here it is then. The big D. I am actually sitting here balling, you know, like a man with a backbone? yeah right, more like a bloomin' whimp!
[/quote] It's ok to cry and let it all out.
Originally Posted by smilie
I have just received a draft divorce petition from my lawyer for approval. This is breaking my heart in so many ways. I never thought that this day would ever come and that I wouldn't even be able to get the chance to heal a relationship issue, let alone know there was one to heal.
No one ever thought we would be here. Part of the journey is accepting it and processing it.
Originally Posted by smilie
WTF did I ever do to her? If this is the price for loving somebody unconditionally, then I really don't know what to say.
Smilies no one outside of your children should ever get your unconditional love.
Originally Posted by smilie
It feels like it's all my fault.
You feel this way now but that will change in time.
Originally Posted by smilie
I couldn't support her the way she expected and she just looked at someone else who had a more affluent lifestyle and was self-sufficient (like I used to be when I met her) and she said to herself "I want that", and so she did. Magically she is transported to a nice house and driving new big cars - a true rags to riches fairy-tale.
So what kind of person is that Smilies?
Originally Posted by smilie
The answer is just as muddled and gives me no clear choice - I must, but I really don't want to. And that one statement takes away one path and takes away choice. I suppose I must keep to my words that I told her just before she left, "I'll give you what you want". She told me what she wanted, so I must keep up my end of the bargain I suppose, after all, I am and always have been, a man of my word.
NO! You do what's best for you!
Originally Posted by smilie
I will never in my lifetime, ever get that answer :-(
You will never get the answer that is satisfactory to you.
Originally Posted by smilie
There is a sadness so deep and so real in my heart right now that I'm sure I am scarred and will be for the rest of my life. Perhaps this is part of detachment, perhaps this is part of moving on.
You may be but you will keep going.
Originally Posted by smilie
This one thing I am sure, will break me ... completely.
