Trust me when I say that we have all been there. It literally feels like the end of the world, like life is over. Like you will never smile again or experience happiness.
Let yourself cry. Scream into a pillow. Feel all of it, and it will lessen it's grip on you.
This is the worst of it, my friend. And you will survive it. And you will not only survive it, you will begin to thrive. And as crazy as it sounds, one day in the future, you will look back and be thankful it happened. Why? Because your W is a cheater and has issues that have nothing to do with you. Yes, you contributed to the end of your marriage. But your W displayed issues before you even started dating her. This is a pattern she will continue until she admits she has issues and then decides to do something about it, which is very unlikely.
Feel your pain and honor it. I promise you will smile again one day.
