Still packing and moving, still stressed, and still exhausted. Have hardly had any help as no one wants to be around my STBXH. So sorting, packing, moving and unpacking has been overwhelming. I've also been working extra hours with work and I've been told that I have an offer package coming for a higher-level full-time position at the parent company, so it would be an increase in income as well as more security. Fingers crossed they give me a solid offer!
As for my mental state, I'm stressed and tired, but otherwise positive and moving forward. I've really come to realize that I really don't want to be with my STBXH anymore, so that has helped while dealing with all the stuff we are dealing with. The house is almost empty, and work has started on both the interior and the exterior. The market is crazy so we are hopeful we will make some good profit on the house...even though it breaks my heart to lose it. So just need to get through the next month until we have it ready.
I've still not caught up on everyone's situations. I'm sorry I am not being much use to any of you right now. I'm so overwhelmed and I have had very little down time, and hardly any time for self care beyond sleep...which has also been in short supply. But I know all of this will settle and soon things will be calmer and I'll have more time. Just right now there is just not enough hours in the day to accomplish everything I'm dealing with.
Sending love and hugs to all of you. I miss you! And I hope things are going well for each and every one of you! If you check in, give me an update on my thread! That will help me to catch up!
xo El
Me 52, H 56 T10 M7, 2nd MR for both 2 Step Sons (19 and 21) BD: Fall 2020 D finalized: July 2022 XH Married AP soon after D day.
