I have completed my training and am now (for the most part) enjoying the heck out of my new career. I am working nights, 12 hour shifts, so it is a lot, but I think it has been an amazing blessing.
Struggle sometimes when it's a slow night, I get a lot of time to think about things, but it doesn't last long.
Attended a nice July 4 party at my son and DIL's house. My mom was there, first time I have seen her in 15 months. XH was there as well and, as per usual, acted like we were still married, including making plans to play cards with my mom.
We all just kind of scratch our heads, and continue on.
His GF of 4 years or so is not allowed around our grandkids, so she never attends with him. My son said that he never brings her up, and that he has only seen her a few times, but avoids her. When the kids and grands go to his house, she has to stay in the house. Such a weird situation, but nothing surprises me anymore.
Still haven't even gone on a first date. I sometimes crave the companionship and company and a partner to do things with - Yes, I have female friends, and they are great, but sometimes, I'd love a man around.
My work partner and I are planning on starting a business and I'm extremely excited about it. He and his wife have become very close friends.
Going to see my newest grandchild at the end of July and my youngest graduates boot camp first weekend in august. I will only see XH one day in August for the graduation.
My friend told me to embrace my new life. I think I have, mostly. Those days that I don't are few and far between and for that I am grateful.
xo
ME47 XH44, S28 S24 S19
8/17-BD IHS: 1/17-2/19 D FILED (ME): 7/19 D FINAL: 10/20 M23 T25 OW CONFIRMED: 01/21
Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
