WAW Walks Away a Second Time

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LH19
Now there's the thing about the emotions and I would agree. When I have to 'deal' with something - reply to an email, make a phone call, sort out a problem, I am working with my logic & reasoning and the shaking stops and I feel sort of normal. As soon as I finish the emotions start again. So, this is what she is acting on is it? Damn, that's nasty to be in a position where you act on them rather than try to understand what's going on, could get you in to all types of nasty situations! :-) <-- bad go at a joke!

It's interesting about your comment in the "Illusion of Actions" as I don't consciously think that I want her back, so there's the emotions thing again driving that behaviour.

I can tell that it will take a while for emotions to level out, I remember last time I was a wreck for months. Although it may not seem like it, I don't think I'm as bad this time as I have been able to function much better than I remember before. I think these past couple of days have been the worst so far, as the weather has been rubbish so I haven't been out too much and I am thinking about things more in regard to whether she is still having a good time with what she is doing, or whether she's having second thoughts. I think that it's this that's tripping me up. I need to let go of thinking about her and focus on me, as Bent says.

I do tend to beat myself up a bit, so I'll take it easy on myself for a while.


SteveLW / Thornton
Yep GAL going good as far as I can tell, I posted a reply to Bent (above) detailing what I've been up to. Not sure whether that's the kind of work we're on about here?

It doesn't help having ALL of her stuff still here. Perhaps after she comes to collect some of her bits it will make things a bit easier. It is horrible though and yes, it triggers anxiety and the shakes immediately in me also. Nasty state of affairs.

Thanks for all of your kind words and sharing your experiences. I know it can't be easy and I appreciate your time more than you will know. Thank you