So, yesterday, when D and H went to breakfast she confronted him that he forgot her birthday. He was shocked and sorry. They hashed things out between them and they are on solid ground. He also said he would come with us to the airport tomorrow morning to see her off. I know this made her happy.
I spoke with his mom and she tried to call him and speak with him and just to mention that she was disappointed that she did not really see him this visit. He was at his uncle's and was gaslighting her that he was fine. She told me that he did a great job as a father to our daughter. He told her that D was going to be gone three months. We all know this, but i found it interesting that he has focused on that detail.
Yesterday, I felt that he was being more present, cleaning things and asking about food items (just basic conversations) and this morning, he let me know that he filled the car up for me ( I had asked last night) I thanked him.
D and I had plans to head out for last minute items she needs and she told him we were going to the mall. We were gone a few hours. We get home and he has posted that he is at an amusement park. I was instantly crushed. Not because I want to go there, but I want to go anywhere with him.
I know that I will not know where his head is unless I ask him and I do not want to do that. I did ask D if he mentioned anything on a divorce or moving out of our home with her since he knows that she knows about the OW and she said that they did not discuss him and I. I will not ask her anymore about him and I don't want her to feel bad about hurting me.
I really feel on the edge with her leaving. I am going to change my routine since she will be gone and I do not have to worry about being loud walking around while she's trying to sleep in the living room. I have sent this kid all over with world since she was 11 and went to NZ for a couple of weeks. I have never cried, I have always been too excited for her to be sad. I am so excited for her, but this time, I feel on the verge of tears. I am actually very excited to work tomorrow since I will be the only one there, I do not deal with customers, so if I want to have a big cry, I can.
I have plans and friends that I will see over the Summer, so I will not be moping at home, but if I could with no one knowing, I would be happy to stay away from the world.
I remain hopeful that him not telling his mom can be a positive to me, but the fact remains that he does not want to go anywhere with me alone.
I realized I am just writing anything that comes to mind and apologize for juming all over the place. I will post after the airport tomorrow.
