WAW Walks Away a Second Time

[SteveLW]

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I wake up with mine, literally wake me up. My plan starting from the morning, is to do a workout before breakfast and actually pus through the attack. See if that works! Gonna be tough though!

smilieI can relate to the panic attacks. In fact, in my first sitch in 2005 this is how I realized she was having an EA. She was staying up late in the home office down the hall "working". My first inclination that something wasn't right was one night one of my favorite athletes, in one of his final events, was putting on an amazing performance. After he pulled out a win, I went down to the home-office to tell her about it, and when I came into the HO I say her quickly hide a screen. My sub-conscious picked up on it, but in my excitement about what I was sharing I didn't even think about it much. After all, she had been working so hard, staying up so late each night that I just assumed she had her nose to the grindstone. Nope, she had been down there every night IMing with OM.

That night I woke (about 3-4 hours later) from a dream where she was cheating on me, in a full blown panic attack! Heart racing, shortness of breath, chest pains, feeling of complete hopelessness. It was awful. But that was when I started putting all of the pieces together of what was going on.

Panic, fear, loss of feeling of control. Sleeplessness. No appetite. It all comes with the territory. I've often said that MR problems are one of the worst things a person can go through. Time will help. It does get better and easier. But that is little solace while you are still suffering. AS, like many, have turned to ADs temporarily to help. We've had posters here that were so depressed and distraught they started to have feelings of self-harm. That is a huge red-flag that you need professional help! So if you have those thoughts, even in passing, you need to discuss it with a medical doctor to potentially get on ADs.

I can't remember if you said you are in IC or not? I tell LBSs all the time that these sitches are traumatic and you likely are suffering from some level of PTSD. So do not be too proud to go get IC. All LBSs should be in therapy to help them cope.