AnotherStander: Thank you for your personal account. Yes they are nasty and the last one I had was 10 years ago when this happened the first time. So there's that - obviously I can't handle wives leaving me for OM very well!
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The panic attacks were awful, they would strike at work and home at random times, even in the middle of the night when I was asleep. I would wake up completely freaked out with my heart pounding.
Yes, exactly this! Every night.
I really didn't want to take A/D's as I don't know how they will effect my Neurological Condition (Vestibular Migraine). Just have to take a chance as I can't keep feeling like this - it's been 4 weeks and it's no better.
I've tried to stay away from the suicide thing, although it's very easy to go to that place and I was there last time, right there. This time I try to hold the thought that nobody is going to drive me to that place, nobody, even though it always seem to come knocking....
Herbal tea on brew and I have a video to watch "Dollar Vigilante" Jeff Berwick, I find him quite amusing. That'll be an hour from 10, so bed at 11. I have taken my meds - Diazepam + first dose of A/D - so hopefully they won't make my dizziness worse. Although it's fairly bad at he moment for screen work, stress and lack of sleep.
M(55), W(45) BD1: Apr-2011, BD2: 23-May-21, NC (15 June '21) Divorce Filed (16 July '21) --- When you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel, you need to trust it's there.
