Still putting one foot in front of the other...

[Elbereth]

Thank you all. Yeah, I've been stretched to the limit and each day I think I will have time to be online, I end up just collapsing in bed and crashing. It's been hard. I haven't had much help as many of my friends and family do not even want to be near my STBXH...so I've really had very little help. And as I wasn't able to separate what is mine from his, it's not like I could hire movers like normal people. So I am just doing a bit every day.

I've had very little time for self-care lately. But things will calm down at the end of the month and I will get back to my normal self-care walks and such. Right now, I am just trying to eat well, sleep enough, and get some down time each day and not work myself to death. ha!

Mentally, I am in a weird place. I've had bouts of sadness, but it's not that I want my STBXH back. It's more like sad over the loss of my dreams of the future, my life as I knew it, and fears about losing the extended family. Things like that. However, I did hear from his family and they do seem to love me and want to remain close to me regardless of what is happening with H and I. So that helps.

On the job front, I have been given the opportunity to try to define my new full time position and there are a bunch of meetings this week at the office with upper level management. Hoping things go well and I get set up with a job I will love to do and a pay that is worth it.

Well, behind on things for today, so let me get back to it. I do want to catch up on all your threads. You guys mean a lot to me too!

Hugs,
El