Mine left when we were looking at houses to buy. It made zero sense to me that she was thinking about pulling the plug. I obsessed over the reasons why it happened for months on end.
The anxiety was the worst part for me. Feeling light headed and nauseous all the time was crazy making.
For me, my saving grace was the gym. I hit the gym hard and still do to this day, it's became my therapy.
You can also watch vids on YouTube about letting go etc. There are several good Ted Talks you can find online that I think would benefit you.
