My summer, won’t be too exciting, however the beach is close enough and I have Los Angeles about 45 minutes away which has tons of restaurants and museums. I know I can busy myself on the weekends.
The one thing I really struggle with is not going by myself (I’m good company!) it’s wishing he could be the person that wants to come, too. We finally have resources to have fun and I’m doing all of these things that I know he’d enjoy. This makes me sad and I hate that it does because he has disconnected and gone places without me without a look back.
If D ends up getting a well paying offer, she said she probably would take it. She can work anywhere, but I think eventually she would live in Europe. I know I can visit on my own if this happens, but again, I’d like us both to go but he would obviously have to mend things with her and me and I truly am one of those who feels his MLC will last forever.
I told my therapist that I know he wants a divorce because that is what he told me and I trust his word and she laughed. She reminded me of other things, positive and negative, throughout our marriage that did not come to pass. I know I have hope inside, otherwise I wouldn’t be standing, but I don’t know why I believe him so strongly.
He has done NOTHING. All he did was tell me and live in the other room. He’s been working on his hobby. He ignores D and me. I almost feel like he is pushing for me to file, telling him how horrible he is being. I’m not.
So anyway, today was car wash, I’ll shop for a Father’s Day gift for my dad and finishing a good mystery later. (I love to read!)
