But this is where you lose your creditability KK. Screwing around with the pilot wasn't standing for your marriage. IMO you were using him to make your H jealous and he saw right through you.
My H to this day knows NOTHING about pilot.... and I mean NOTHING. So I was NOT using pilot to make my STBXH jealous... I have never mentioned dating to my STBXH, to my stepkids, to my MIL. I NEVER post anything anywhere. My STBXH would be shocked to hear that I've not only dated... I got seriously attached... which was just limerance.
I was lonely, feeling insecure, feeling pressure from everyone that my M was over and move on/get over it mentality. I was unsure where to start, how to act, what to do... I was like a fish out of water.
I see now that even though I was not only legally separated, financially separated and physically separated... I was still married... and I was having an affair.
Not a proud moment to have realized that... but it is what it is...
