Hello friends. Just a quick update. I'm in crazy town with moving to a new place, planning renovations to get the house up for sale, and trying to get full time employment all in one week! Ha! Wish me luck!

H has been helping with the move and little projects I need in the new place, and I am taking it. For one, I am keeping things civil between us for the kids and to hopefully keep the D process from getting ugly. For two, I am so overwhelmed, I will take the help. It is so weird that under all this stress we are not fighting. Our marriage has had a lot of stressors and things were hard. Now it's ending and we are getting along better. Life is strange. There was a moment when he could have shown some romantic interest in me, and he didn't, so to me it still appears that he is in the fog pretty deep. For myself, I've also been feeling less tied to him emotionally/romantically, so maybe the detachment period is fully in place. I am honestly not sure I would ever want to be with him again beyond the chemistry we had. We did have some good years, but the marriage was so stressful and I never felt important enough. Again, I'm trying not to rewrite history, but the more emotionally separated I get from him, the more I remember how much strife there was in our relationship.

There has been a change in management at work, and that might affect my job situation in getting hired full time. So, I am sort of starting out at step one again with a new manager to convince. But trying to just roll with it and know that I can't control any of it. So, putting energy into all the things happening right now and trying to save a little energy and rest for myself in the process.

On a positive note, my temporary place might last longer than expected, so that will help until I get myself on solid footing and get thorough the divorce. I've been feeling sad about losing the house, the ending of all those dreams, for the time I struggled to make this marriage work with all the drama that we had. But I'm also hopeful that things for me will be better, that I will find someone who really loves me for me, and I will have the partnership I deserve. Send positive vibes my way that the next few weeks go as smoothly as possible with everything going on. Thanks friends!

I'll be catching up with all of you on your threads as soon as I am settled. Miss you and seeing how you all are doing!

El

Me 52, H 56
T10 M7, 2nd MR for both
2 Step Sons (19 and 21)
BD: Fall 2020
D finalized: July 2022
XH Married AP soon after D day.