Quote: Also, what should I really believe about how he feels about me? His actions or his words?
Alorna, honey... please do yourself and your little one a favour and get away from this creep. The best advice I can give to you in regards to your quote above, is this: Believe how he feels about you by how he makes you feel about yourself. You do not deserve to be treated this way and your son does not need him to be his example. PLEASE be strong and true to yourself. It's easier said than done, but from what you've posted on this board, he needs a huge wake up call and you are not obligated in any way (to your son) to continue living with such pain and degradation. Leave and *if* he cleans up his act and proves himself worthy, then you'll have a choice to make... otherwise, live your life and show your son that women are not doormats to be pissed on.
Quote: I think I'm to the point that I'm scared to leave...I don't know how I got here, but I have. I love my SO, but I know this is not good situation.
What are you scared of? Financial hardship? Your safety? A custody battle? You need to look at why you love someone who treats you this way... and you need to look at why you're accepting it and fearing life without it. PLEASE sweetheart... call a women's shelter just to talk to someone and see what your options are. You are not as alone as you may feel and there are resources out there to help you get away from him, safely and with dignity.
You can do it! Be firm and know that you deserve better.
