I really have made a lot of short work in the last month. It was just a general level of acceptance I needed to face. Yes the stbxw still refers to me as “my handsome baby daddy” which grinds my gears but she seems good in her la la land today. I have finished painting the room, I did a great job. I wil assemble my daughters bed (it’s like a little house it’s a pain) put the furniture in and go home.
The new girl in my life mentioned yesterday going up this way for a baptism of her adult friend who is embracing her faith coming up. She wanted to come by and see me, I honestly would like that. It’s not for a couple weeks which will allow the ex to get into the groove of the finality of this. I will take her up hiking and fishing for a day. That’s my plan. And it will be super fun.
I did pick up and extra work day this week. And I have been talking to therapists as well. One from the VA and 2 more from work. And honestly I feel good about where I am. I know I got a ways to go but I’m a hell of a lot better now. In the 8 months I have
Stood alone for my M Got into therapy and medication Kept close with the in laws who adore me Got my own place last second Cut off my financial ties Got my credit score over 50 points up Lost 65 pounds, Spend lots of time alone, fishing, etc. Stayed away from bars and dating apps. Stayed away from alcohol in any kind of excess Renewed my faith. Had enough and pushed the D to conclusion. Read lots of books. Spent a lot of time with my kids and RC cars outside and in the mountains Got my degree and signed up for a new IV /blood transfusion certification class which is coming up soon .
So thus far I feel like I’m doing pretty good considering all that’s happened.
Last edited by Steve_; 05/19/2101:36 AM.
T:11 M:10 K: D5, S7 BD: 9/1/20 WW continues to break up and recon with OM. I paid last fees and pushed the D 5/3/2021 Default Dissolution granted 8/5/21. Glad my D was not busted.
