One more thing to add. I know going out and looking for an OW is a bad idea. Which is why I never did. Never went on apps or dated or anything. That’s not how you get through this in a healthy way. I prayed a lot and stayed away from bars, clubs, women etc.. for this 8 months we been separated I have just focused on the kids and standing for the M alone. The OW came into my life as a friend and we began to talk about her past R’s my current R and about faith, sending each other sermons and kind of deducing what they meant. She just moved away for school 4 hours from here so I have been supporting her big life change too. I met her a couple times before she moved away to go out for dinner and so forth. Totally with no kind of intention for anything besides friendship. But over the couple of months that we talked I became more interested and wondered why god chose to put this woman on my path. I am not looking for an R here, I know it’s not a good idea but I also won’t ask for blessings and then refuse to accept them. I have to allow that in my life I deserve that and that’s why I took the steps I did, made peace with stbxw and everything. So I won’t be doing anything I should be ashamed of, in secret, or etc.. I have children and I don’t want them to see dad doing stuff like mom did. So to prevent some kind of bad disaster I chose to get my Sitch squared away on all 4 corners before even entertaining a female friend/ companion of any kind. I have a lot to still do for me, and I don’t need anyone. And that is where I wanted to be.
T:11 M:10 K: D5, S7 BD: 9/1/20 WW continues to break up and recon with OM. I paid last fees and pushed the D 5/3/2021 Default Dissolution granted 8/5/21. Glad my D was not busted.
