Sage-ertawnia of the Upper Reaches of Good Womanhood -- Your little note wedged its way into my psyche all week. It seemed mesmerizing to read that I did something of value, as ridiculous as that may sound. Which brings us back to... how we don't even realize how deep was the MLCer's reach, how much we take for granted that lie now woven into our spirits that we are not really worth anything to anyone. I am not even aware of that lie all the time, it must have just been my background noise -- but realized that if I was reading your note (and the others here on my thread!) sixty-two thousand times with disbelief, it points not only to your kindess and friendship but how long ago it was that we felt loved or liked and how deeply we believed the MLCer's lie about our worth.
LBS's, be alert! Most of what you are worrying about is based on a lie about who you are, what you did and what a marriage is supposed to be! It will be a veil over everything you do and think until you can start to see your own value and to see what is happening more clearly.
I believe I will see the bounty of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord with courage. Be stouthearted, and wait for the Lord.