Fascinating that he called himself a sociopath. Most do not come to that level of self-understanding. I wouldn't gloss over that statement - I suggest you read up a bit on sociopathy. The Sociopath Next Door is a quick read that is a good starting point. The Psychopath Inside is a fascinating book by a neuroscientist who was studying the brains of psychopaths and accidentally discovered his brain had the same telltale signs. At first he was in denial but after speaking with friends and family and carefully examining his life, he realized that this was correct - his tendencies had just been held slightly in check by a good upbringing and a supportive wife. (One example - he had cajoled his brother into going with him to visit a cave in Africa- without telling him that the cave had been the site of an outbreak of a very deadly Ebola-like viral infection. )
Please start a new thread. I am leaving this one open so that you can link up your threads and post your new thread link on this one before I lock it down.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.