Thank you all for the replies. I read each of them and really think on them.
Yes I am not over my WW but I know I cannot be with her and I accept it. And something really nice happened yesterday.
WW messaged me “I know you hate me but my kids haven’t called or anything today and it’s Mother’s Day and it’s hard for me”
I responded “I don’t hate you, we did go get you a card and a flower, I know you are at work so that’s why, but if you have time feel free to call the kids”
I told her also “I understand it’s hard on me as well”
She replied “I seriously doubt that”
So I said “finishing that divorce last week was the hardest thing I ever did, but I had to because what I want and deserve you cannot give me. I do love you and I always will but I don’t have 2-3 years to wait while you have other men come and go in your life, I need commitment, honestly, loyalty and integrity”
She said “I have been crying a lot, I didn’t think you would ever file it, it hurt me very bad when you did”
I told her “I had to, for me, because I deserve better than this”
She responded “I know, and you do, it’s just hard to see Steven give up, I never thought you would”
I told her “we were always close, best friends, maybe one day god will fix us but not anytime soon and I see that, that’s why I did it”
She said “I know in time I can be good, I can give you those things, but right now I cannot, and I just wanted you to hang in there and give me time”
I said “I did for 7 months, and if that was not enough I’m afraid nothing ever will be, I told her also, it’s okay, I’m not mad, go be free, go be beautiful, but please make good choices in your partner for the children, they have been through a lot, the greatest gift I could have offered you as your husband is to let you go, you wanted to be free and now you are so just consider the kids when you make choices that effect them please”
She said “thank you so much” and admitted to going on a date last night but not feeling good about it because the kids are still really upset she left me to begin with and she doesn’t want to hurt them again.
I just ended things with “happy Mother’s Day from the bottom of my heart and I hope you will reach out if the children need anything.
She responded with crying emojis and said thank you, that she was sorry for everything, and that she hopes some day things will change
I feel like this convo was not necessary but there was this animosity about the D that I feel is ironed out. Her tone went from anger to sadness and then just a friendly manner during the convo. As much as it pains me to hear she is dating I know that’s what she wanted and I wanted to make my peace with her over that. I know eventually I will find a partner when god intends that for me. For now I move forward.
Today I go and pick up my associates degree in nursing from the school. I’m happy to have that done, soon I will do my bridge program to RN and then go back to the school where I got my previous bachelors and get my bachelors in nursing done. I have really attainable goals and I can see myself living a life without WW. A happy life. And I prayed for that for a long time.
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T:11 M:10 K: D5, S7 BD: 9/1/20 WW continues to break up and recon with OM. I paid last fees and pushed the D 5/3/2021 Default Dissolution granted 8/5/21. Glad my D was not busted.
