Hanging out a lot with friends from work, 3 of my buddies going through nursing school, having them over to study. Working a lot and just passing the time in between with my kids. I took a vacation time this week. Went over to the coast fishing, spent time with my sister, went and saw my uncles I hadn’t seen In almost 2 years. And I visited my grandmother’s grave and sort of unloaded all the stuff that has happened on her. She was my favorite person in the world.
In the meantime ww and I don’t talk. It’s business only, just kids. Once in awhile she will call but I don’t answer. I will only text regarding kids. She has been better about it because I told her if she acts disrespectfully I won’t deal with her or even respond. She told me recently she got a new job, bar tending at a night club....so she will be working weeknights there..
I pretty much had a moment of real sadness with my grandmother. I accepted that as much as I love my ww we can never be back together, she will never love and respect me the way I deserve there is just far too much damage to fix and I cannot live the rest of my life looking over my shoulder, I’ll never be able to trust her. It was something I been working on accepting. And I have. I will tell her I will be moving the D forward, there really is no fixing this. Not sure when exactly but soon. [censored] breaking down my family but there just is no way to live with a woman who doesn’t respect, value or admire me as a man and husband and father. My WW never will. And that’s why I hardly speak to her for the past two weeks. Even if she told me she would change everything, I don’t think I could believe her. And honestly I am okay with it. There will be someone who loves me totally out there one day.
T:11 M:10 K: D5, S7 BD: 9/1/20 WW continues to break up and recon with OM. I paid last fees and pushed the D 5/3/2021 Default Dissolution granted 8/5/21. Glad my D was not busted.
