Completely agree with it all Gerda!! Thanks for taking the time to write it. I was that person you describe but lucky for me, tried really hard to follow the advice of the people on here...even though I wasn’t always the best at it. It’s been two and a half years since BD and I have grown so much. I can barely remember the heartbroken, panic stricken person that I was back then. I am in a good place and working on living my best life. I wouldn’t go back even if I could. I didn’t save my marriage but I absolutely saved myself. Thanks to you and the other people on here who have stuck around to pass on their experiences and the kind of wisdom that only comes from having been there themselves. Much love to you!! Hope your situation has gotten better. (((HUGS)))