Mate, we are very similar and we are going through similar things. I think that I might be slightly ahead of you, albeit with a long way to go still. Things do get better, especially when you put in the work. When shiz started popping off for me about 10-11 months ago I honestly wondered how I would deal with the pain, now I'm at the point where I know and believe that one day I will be truly loving life again.
Me: 41 W:42 T: 14 M: 11 S: 6
"What happened happened, and couldn't have happened any other way...because it didn't"