Hey OnlyBent, thanks for stopping by. Mostly i have been feeling a bit better but also have days when it hits me, its all part of the process though and i understand that.

It is true that our internal narrative and the way we think or talk about things creates our reality, i have been aware of that amd trying to change the way i think about things but changing thought patterns is extremely difficult. She was and is being selfish and maybe it has less to do with me than i realise but that doesnt really make me feel better at this stage.

I know things will work out for the best, its just so hard to see the light during the storm. I just want to be on the other side of this now but i dont want to wish away any parts of my life no matter how difficult this is its something i need to learn and grow from and thats a good thing. Thanks for the encouragement, patience has always been one of me weaker points but im slowly trying to change that. Hope things are going alright your side


Me 32, W 24
T 6, M 3
No kids
BD: Aug 2020
OM: Jan 2021
Wife to file soon