Trying to heal from WW - part 2

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Fair enough Steve, I kind of just accepted that she would file soon but i have realised for a while that she is dragging her feet. I dont think that its because she is second guessing, just that she is delaying admin that she isnt willing to do at the moment.

I still cant believe the person i loved coud do this to me, but my disbelief doesn't change whats happened. I am weary but i still pray for her and our marriage, i believe that God can perform miracles but i also realise that everything is part of his plan and if we aren't meant to be then it is what is. I realise that that type of thinking can be thought of as a cop out and a way of thinking that removes blame but that isnt the way i look at it. A lot of people wont understand but thats how i feel. Either she is in the plan for my life or she isnt but i will keep praying for a loyal, god loving, beautiful woman whether it is her or not.

Im not willing to date until my divorce is finalized, i have been tempted and i downloaded Tinder for a few days but deleted it because i know im not ready and i definitely dont want hook ups anymore. I want to meet someone i can spend the rest of my life with