Had a bad nights sleep last night - the first one in a long time! while i lay there awake i got to thinking about the last 18 months - normally don't think about it!
I manage to put my WW into the Vampire stage of how she sucked all my life blood out of me and caused me to be a shadow of the person i was! when she had used all my life blood - left to find another victim in the PA (no sympathy)
I am back to where i was 18 months ago now (i think) looking forward to life, eager to move on and upwards and hopefully later on find a person who wants me for who i am.
I did go back to sleep afterwards.
I say this a lot. LOL So forgive me for sounding like a broken record, but setting a drop dead date for me was so freeing. Once I decided that I would give her 1 year after BD to fully recommit to the marriage, or I would move forward with D myself, I started sleeping a lot better at night. Most of my sleeplessness was future related, not so much looking back. So once I had a path forward I started sleeping easier at night.
And when that didn't work, a dose of diphenhydramine (Benadryl) did the trick!
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
