Strange how detached I feel now. Even the hug didn’t give mixed emotions, it actually didn’t do anything. The only emotion I had was compassion, definitely because of the way he looked. Old, skinny, tired.
You sound in a zen place. You say you're okay with or without him--I suspect he's already lost his chance. Sympathy isn't exactly what he'd want you to feel, if he were hoping to pitch, "Hey! Let's get back together."
