I am not surprised that this MLC marriage didn't work out. Once the "glow" of a secret marriage, etc., has become dull and boring, that is win things begin to crack. Some marriages that come out of affairs will last, but the question I always have is "are they really happy w/their new found lives and w/themselves for deceiving others"?
He can't look at you because he knows darn well what he has put you through and continues to put your boys through. He knows darn well that you were the best wife, companion and friend that he had. He blew it all up for that "high" he got from sneaking around and being w/that woman.
You have shown him that you've taken the high road and continue to do so. His loss is his to own and he will live w/that regret for the rest of his life. He may never say he is sorry, but he truly regrets what he's done.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
