I know! High school! And yesterday was the first time she got dropped off at the mall with a friend for a shopping trip with no adults . I can’t believe this! Definitely growing up.
Last night ex came to pick up D from my house after a party. He had to come in and pee. He was definitely drunk as he pulled a flask out of his jacket ( his wife was driving). He decided to have a discussion with D in front of me about anniversary gifts and him getting her Mac book air for the titanium wedding anniversary or whatever. He went to to the bathroom and D 13 says to me “ I guess that’s why he is broke and can’t afford his half of my contacts “
They left and I just cried. And cried. I don’t know why. But I did.
I’m at work today and I’m fine. I’m happy I’m working this weekend, believe it or not. I’m off Monday and getting some testing done on Monday. I saw a doctor about my inability to lose weight. She took one look at me and diagnosed me with insulin resistance just by looking at my neck. Official diagnosis to follow after a 3 hour glucose tolerance test Monday. She’s a special metabolic doctor. It boils down to I’m pretty much going to have to eliminate carbs and sugar. My body can’t process them even if I’m in a calorie deficit ( which I’ve been doing for a few months now and sticking to it) but I have to do what I have to do. She was a really sweet doctor and we were talking about being a mother to teenage girls. She believes if I follow what the dietician says once we figure everything out, I have the potential to lose 40lbs ( I’ve never been that thin and I think I might look sickly) but hey, let’s see!
I’m trying everything to make sure my life is better. I’m putting my health on the forefront again. No one is going to take care of me, but me
