The trigger was actually a work issue... everything else was just snowball effect.
The work issue should have been resolved in 10min... but its not... and that triggered a major anxiety issue and everything is just compounding a hundred fold.
I'm not currently dating. The guys I have gone out with previously know that I'm not looking for that right now and 2 are willing to just be friends and hang out from time to time.
Oh, and my birthday on Sunday is probably an additional trigger.
As for the puppy - if I hadn't agreed STBXH would have found someone else. Its super unlikely he would have cancelled a trip to HI because I would not watch the dog. FRACK... its been nice to the fella back. The only good part about this crappy day.
I know I won't die from this but its the weight of 100 elephants on my chest at the moment...
