Steve_ Facing reality Part 1.

[Steve_]

And to answer your question, if she came back and said "lets fix this" I would at this time probably want to but not do it. Each day that goes by I feel I want this M less and less, its just not a good idea, I will end up right back in this scenario later, kids suffering again later, etc.. I feel like why do it all again. Im just barely accepting the reality of it now. Im not gonna run through hell and barely make it out, just to have a seat again in it later. Yes, even me, mr worse WW and most attatched dude ever can see that this is messed up. I was absolutely destroyed for about 4-5 months. This last month has been waffling like hell for both of us and its just plain stupid. Its best to accept and walk away, not even move on to dating just move on to myself for awhile. I get that now, I really do.

And also some other dude will take her, shes very pretty. She will get whatever/whoever she wants. I dont think I will be some kind of last resort choice. She has many that chase her, honestly I am the only thing holding her back from moving on with my little efforts. But since those stopped recently, she's become more distant, which makes things easier.