Steve_letting go part 3.

[Steve_]

Lots of good responses. And I was never a stay at home dad, I always worked, paid every bill and also did all that cooking, cleaning, child rearing etc. she quite literally sat around and looked pretty that was it. Yep big mistake. Gender or no gender there was not a partnership. Point blank and period.

Otherwise not a lot to report. Been spending more time with the kids. Took them to the snow the other day, drove the RC trucks around up there on the mountain. Today I took my son to the nickel arcade. Also I downloaded a dating app. But I have zero Intention of dating. It’s actually just to talk to people of the opposite sex and kind of be social. I don’t hang around bars and the like. So far a couple nice people but they either want quick sex or a marriage. I need nothing from anyone. Including my WW. I am still having a hard time facing that my M is over and not blaming it all on me. But I keep my mouth shut and just move forward. I am still a bit much in replies too wordy as you pointed out sandy. But my convincing, and nicing and etc has really gone significantly down. I know I should have the balls to just stop but my NGs was so bad that even slowly backing off is hard.

I’ll get there. And it’s gonna hurt. And it [censored]. But that seems to be life, and nothing will remain terrible forever.

Oh and get this: my WW actually 100% believes that we will be together in the future, she outright admits she will never do better for her or the kids. But she isn’t “ready” right now and enjoys the feeling of being single for “awhile” before she re-commits to the M. Yeah what that is is simple. My H is out, but still attached so I can do whatever I want until mom and dad move away and I’ll stay in the house and get my loving H back when they go in several months or so. That is exactly her plan... just... wow...

Even the GD grinch on his foulest day had a bigger heart than that.